沁心园

Well, i was debating what to use for this title, is debating between “the power of fasting” and ” God is always good”…
And i decided to use this title …haha =D

Today, something unexpected things came up….
and it’s really really really out of my expectation….
I never think about it….it never come into my mind…
Our group for PY201 won one of the best presentation for research colloqium..
Wow…that’s great. A really good thing to celebrate….

This reminds me of God goodness.

At times, when i pray, i just feel like the prayer is not getting over the ceiling…
My prayers is unanswered…

However, God is always good…
Your prayer mayb be unanswered in this time, but it may turn out in others way.
Just like wat i experience…
when your prayer has being answered, you will find that wat u pray for come just in the right time….
As the scripture say, 1 Peter 5:6- “Humble yourselves then under God’s mighty hand, so that he will lift you up in His own good time.”
He will reveal to you in His timing, not yours…..

I personally feel so strongly about that, coz wat i pray for last time, it does not answer at that time, but my prayer was answered few months after that….
Wat i did, was just wait patiently and continue to pray…

besides that, i also feel that the power of fasting is so strong….
I personally experience the power of it…
It’s really powerful….

I remember i read somewhere in a book said that 3 duties as a Christian are giving, praying and fasting…

When you denying your fleshly desire, like food or mayb games, and just focus on GOD, you will be surprise on how God will work in your life….
However, when you fast, pls remember to fast it in a right motive….

Once again,  He like to surprise me, and i’m totally being surprised by Him…
I LOVE YOU~

hahahahha~~

221109, is our ECFD 3rd anniversary.

Time just past like a glimpse of eyes…3 years already….( i joined ECFD last year when i came to HELP)

I still remember the time when i first came to ECFD….
The warmest that i received, i will never forget it….
The people in this church, i will not forget also

This is the place where i found my purpose in life…
This is the place where i found the great people…
This is the place where i found truth friendship…
This is the place where i found my spiritual family…
This is the place where i found the most valuable thing in life…
This is the place where i found a great Master….
This is the place where i found a loving Father…
This is the place where i found Jesus Christ….

My turning point started here….
My turning point was the first day i step into this church….

Looking back at how i first time went to ECFD, how i start my journey with Him.
I just feel God is so amazing….
I’m so amazed by how He brought me here, how He touched me and found me..
There is a lot of memories in this church….

I’ m totally being blessed by this church….
I learn a lot from this church….from the people in this church…

Thinking back of how much i received frm this church, what i serve is too little….
I’ m really thankful of how God brought me here…
How much God has blessed this church….

I really love this church….
ECFD is my second home…

Highlight of the day was, i was performing a dance for the anniversary…
I was very stress before the day…even stress than the research colloqium…
because of this dance, i did my second make up in my life….
I was impressed by how make up can really make a person look different…
A lot of my friend cant recognize me…especially my roommate….
She pass by me twice yet won’t recognize me…hw terrible it is…
While, i have to say that my make up artist was really good….haha..
She turn me into another person….

N the most encouraging part was one soul has being saved in the 3rd anniversary!!! hureah!!
Praise God!!

That’s how you’ll be amazed by God’s grace….

To me, God give me lots of surprise….

He love to surprise, and i love it.. =D

Oh gosh…i can’t believe that i went with four crazy ppl to watch Phobia 2 ( horror movie) at 11.45pm in the mid-night…

In my life, this is the second time i watched horror in the cinema…

I never like horror movie….

Coz it’s scary, bloody..and it make me feel horrible!!

I also don’t know why that time i will follow them to watched the movie…

I think it’s because i don’t want to miss any opportunity to hang out with them.

I just wanna to spend time with them…with all i can….

They all are nice people that i love to fellowship with…

I choose them over movie….

By the way, i screamed a lot during the movie…
I was covered myselft with scarf for most of the time and my heart was pumping so fast…i can even felt it!
I feel so sorry to those that sit on my left and right hand side…they cant really enjoy the movie….

Anyway, the movie ended with a funny story, the last part kind of like lighten up the movie, make it not so heavy….and it’s funny….haha
I think that’s the only part that i enjoyed…..

I will never go to watch horror movie again! NEVER!

Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labor in vain.
Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain.

In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat-for he grants sleep to those he loves.

Sons are a heritage from the Lord, children a reward from him.

Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are sons born in one’s youth.

Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them.

They will not be put to shame when they contend with their enemies in the gate.

A chapter of praise of God’s goodness….

In verse 1 to 2, show that Lord is the makers, providers of everything….
He allows you to breath, to eat, have clothes to wear, a house to live in, etc…
He gives it all to those He loves…
How sweet and touching it is when you still asleep, He already work behalf on you, give you everything that can sustain you to live with….

Besides that, the dreams you have is also given by Him….
He allows you to dream….

Overtime, we tend to exclude Him from our plans, dreams….

because deep in our heart, we know that dream is not approve by Him….

Thus, we cut Him out from our dreams….

By human nature, we often take the credits to ourselves and forget about God…
We forget is by God grace that you have been saved, by God grace that you have those things….
We think about  ourselves soo big that we forget about Him….

Actually, everyone of us in this world is soooo small…
We’re just a dust in God measurement….

However, God loves us so much that He care everything about us…
He care every inch of us….
He care us so much till He gave His only Son for us…..
Everyone is a diamond in God’s eyes…
He value us the most in this world, no one will never value us as much as He does….

Be grateful that you are His children..
Be grateful that He will not abandon you…
Be grateful that He will listen to you when nobody understand you….

Start to include Him in all your plan, dreams…

Fill your heart with Thanksgiving for the Lord is deserve all the praise.

This is a very good question to all of us…
some of us believe in GOD…
some of us don’t…
some believe in GOD but they don’t believe in Jesus…
some believe that there is a lot of GOD in the world….
and many more answer tat will come out….

I never taught about this question, until last year, when i first came to KL…
somebody came up to me with this question, only at that time i started to think about this question : “Does GOD Exist?”

It’s already 1 year 1 month and 8 days i accepted Christ into my life..
This question came to me again…
This time, i surely give the answer “YES! God does exist, God is watching me from heaven and He is everywhere”

Today, a senior pastor in ECF Puchong shared about the evidence of existence of GOD…
He gave many good example of people’s doubt about GOD…
Many people question, challenge, against GOD…
For example : if there is GOD, why He allow suffering to exist?
if there is GOD, why war will happen?
if there is GOD, why the crime rate still increasing?
if there is GOD, why, why and why…

Those are the questions that i asked before i accepted Christ…
One of the pastor said that if you want to find all the answer with facts, that is impossible, coz you never will got all the answer for your question.
You will never find an absolute answer, coz science cnt explain everything in the world.
For me, i personally think that GOD is the answer, u will only get the answer when you believing in His existence.

I still remember when i started my journey of discover GOD, i got a lot question, a lot of doubt, and i was skeptical….
my disciples at tat time tried very hard to explain to me

But, some of my question still cannot being answer

Honestly speaking, when come to the time i accepted Christ…
My questions still unresolved….
Then why u accepted Christ?
That is because i had my personal experience of encountering GOD..
At that time, i knew, GOD is there…and all the questions and doubts is no longer important to me….coz He is the answer, He is the answer for everything..

That’s why i personally agree with the pastor said that all the doubts and challenges is no more important, when you encounter GOD, when you feel His presence, when you hear His voice….

I thank Him that He found me..
I thank Him for everything…
I never regret of making this decision of want to become the follower of Chirst..
Never….

Today’s message serve as a reminder for me of how i came to Christ, and how much Christ did for me….
It also allow me to say firmly, boldly,no doubt that “Yes, i believe in God” with no regret.

Jesus is my Father, Savior, Protector, Provider and Healer…When think of how much i have right now, friends around me, food and clothes that i have, money that i have, i just could not stop loving jesus and praising Him for the wonderful things He done for me and for the whole world…

I will sing :”Jesus, i am so in love with YOU”

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My First Original Gospel Album from my church by 1am… ^^

Lyrics of the album,cool right?

My first jounal from HELP LG

My first gospel album and journal… YEAPY!!!! (^o^)

My beloved sisters in Christ and roommate.

There are soooo cute ….

I really really appreciate two of u….i really really thank you for all the thing that u two done for me…. U two are sisters that i never had before, u two  are sister that i want to treasure in my whole life, i m so blessed by u two… u two bring laughter to me, teach me a lot…. I really appreciate u two from the bottom of my heart… * I LOVE YOU, JUN & CYNTHIA*

It has been a long time that i didn’t share my life here…..
Of course a lot of things happened…i can’t update one by one over here….
Before i get lazy to write about something….
i better start to write what i wan to share… =p

Proverbs 10 : 4- “Being lazy will make you poor, but hard work will make you

rich”

I’d read a short passage titled “old faithful” few days ago…
the passage caught my spirit….
In the passage, it used Billy Graham as an example of showing how a man serving GOD without fail for nearly 66 years…..
How impressed to me that, a man can have such a strong faith for his whole life….
In the bible there are a lot of great leaders that follow God wholeheartedly..
They stand firm no matter how tough the situation, things around them turn away from them…they still hold strongly in their faith, waited patiently for GOD….
The most beautiful faith in the world is the person who will keep trusting GOD when he is in hard situation,everything is against him….he still trusting GOD and will not turn away from Him.
No doubt and just trusting Him….
That is the most beautiful faith in the world…

After reading the passage, i did a little bit of self-reflect…check my spiritual faith for God….
ah…it was in my expectation….
The faith that i have right now are so weak…..
So weak that it can fragile at anytimes….
Spiritual dryness is the dangerous experience for me….
I’m so afraid that He will abandon me, He will leave me alone….
That kind of feeling is indescribable…

For the past three months, my heart was filled with lots of thanksgiving….
I thank God for everything that i have, thank Him for the trials…and thanks Him for the people around me….
However, i still could not get out of the negative feelings of always worrying about the future…..
worrying keep bugging me for days…..at times this kind of worry will let me forget the promises of God, will let me lost focus on God….

Now, i should keep my heart, sould and mind for God….
I will wait patiently for Your present and keep my ears for Your voice…
So that when that time come, I can sing with You…
I can sing with You…
I’m waiting….

Just as Billy Graham said that he wanted to be remembered as a faithful person
I also wan to be remembered as a faithful person, when ppl think of me..

Hebrews 13: 5 – “…..For God has said: “ I will never leave you, I will never
abandon you.”

“ God is more interested in your future and your relationship than you are.” – Billy Graham

God proved His love on the Cross. When Christ hung, and bled, and died, it was God saying to the world, ”I love you.””- Billy Graham

“I have been asked on hundreds of times in my life why God allows tragedy and suffering. I have to confess that I really do not know the answer totally, even to my own satisfaction. I have to accept, by faith, that God is sovereign, and He is a God of love and mercy and compassion in the midst of suffering.”

Billy Graham

cant imagine i juz have two months….
Mentally and physically is not ready yet….
Afraid of uncertainty….
Afraid of future……
Just hope to go bck home….
hope to have more time with family….

The road i am taking is full of challenges…
the road is not a straight road….
the road is not directing me to a destination…
I am afraid….
I am tired of worrying about tomorrow and future…
I am tired…..
Right now i just feel like wanting to put everything aside and hide under His arms…..
Let me lay under His arms….

Huh….

Why i cnt see the road….

I’m tired of being worry about tomorrow, future…..

Somebody else pls guide me out from this

I hate uncertainty…..

I can’t see my future….

Right in front of my eyes is a lot of challenges

I’m afraid……….

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve you while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

-Lyrics of While I’m Waiting, John Waller

I like this song so much…
Every sentence of the lyrics portray what i ‘m going through…

I don’t know about you, but for me, waiting is a long, undesirable process, especially when you are waiting for something that you cannot see the result at the moment, something that has no ending point….you are covered with darkness….
It’s torturing…..

I am very scare to face when the result of waiting is not wat i want or the outcome of waiting is painful….my heart is bleeding….
It’s scary…..

Although the process of waiting is torturing, scary, i still put my hope in YOU..
Although i still cnt see the light, i still have faith that rainbow is behind the darkness….
It may take days, weeks, months or years for me to reach the rainbow that YOU have prepare for me, but i hope, YOU are not leaving me alone……

I am waiting………….

I would like to use this opportunity to encourage people who feel that he or she is alone in this world, people are struggling with identity crisis, people who are in the hard time in their life that the undesirable moment is not lasting…
Hold on of your dream, recognize your hard moment and embrace it…
It’s sure that the process is tough, is torturing…but please wait…..
He is preparing the best for you
Remember, there are people who love you and care you, please look at your surrounding….you are not alone…..
Hope everyone in the world is not discourage by the current situation
He cares every single thing in your life….

I am waiting………………….